Trying to get pregnant?
Or trying hard not to?

Here's what I learnt at the Infertility Clinic
1)Take your temperature everyday when you wake up. As in open your eyes, dun get up. Straight away grab a thermometer and take your temperature. Try to do that at the same time everyday.

2)Plot a graph showing your temperature. When the temperature dips and shoots up, thats your ovulation period. Should preferably be 14 days after your menstruation. Anything less than 12 days means your eggs are probably immature. Anything after, and the egg becomes impermeable to sperms.

Not guaranteed to be 100% accurate. Don't blame me if accidents happen!

I like how you are so helpful and trustworthy.
You can be counted upon to do whatever you are asked to do.
But you must take care of yourself too ok?
I would hate to see you being exploited
And used and thrown away like a tissue paper.
(Remember this analogy? haha!!)

Hang in there! Winter is coming!

Finally!
A bit of encouragement.
I actually got the TCM case study spot on!
Except for a bit of overanalyzing...
I got the concept right and the used the correct formula!

One more week to the exam...
I'm really quite worn out...
I need my weekends! ARGHH!
When can i have two days of peace?!
Now I need to study for the TCM Term Exam
After that, I have 5 days to study for Pharmacology Midterms
Then after that, I have to study for Physiology Midterms.
And in the middle of that, I have to read up 10 journal articles on TCM herbs
And write up a report summarizing the cancer-fighting properties of a chosen herb.
Not forgetting starting a new module.
And on top of that, I have another midterm for this new module to look forward to.
Oh wait! After that midterm, I probably have next to no time left
Cos the Term Exams for the rest of the modules are next.

Supposedly it will be like this and worse in Beijing.
Although I am looking forward to studying in another country,
I don't think I can cope well...
To drop or not to drop...
Sigh.

But then again,
Listening to you and your troubles
I've been inspired.
Even though you are going through such a tough time
You're not giving up.
And neither will I!
Let's persevere and get through these ridiculous courses together!
GO GO GO!
Don't ever think lowly of yourself!

I'm closing my eyes and looking through them
As if I could peer through space and time.
I see a girl
All alone in the room.
Lying on a bed.
Hugging a bolster.
Upset.
Frowning.
A teardrop.
Escaping the watery eyes
Making its journey down her cheek.
The phone rings.
She pick it up.
A familiar voice.
She reins in her emotions.
And put on a strong front again.

But I hope the voice
Made her realize.
She is not alone.

Today, I realized...
After January next year,
I won't see you again for 2 years.
Now I think my 2 weeks are awfully short.

Oh...the little things that remind me of you.
Apples. How your mom gives you the smaller ones while she gets the bigger apples
Can A. And the Tom Yam Ban Mian.
Library 2. And the blue sofas.
The MRT. How I refuse to get off at Clementi.
Buses side by side. Wave frantically and shout!
The back seat of the double decker bus. Where we fool around on the way home.

First time in my life
I'm missing someone...

I hate Simei.
Everytime I go there, I remember.
That poor girl
Lying there...dying.
Even though it was a long time ago,

Then I get on the MRT.
And good memories of you override the bad ones.
I remember how we chat and while the time away.
When I send you home...

Joke around in the near empty bus...
Walk you home from the MRT...
You walk me to the bus stop.
I sms you once you leave my sight.

Rawr...

Is there a telescope
Good enough
So I can see you from here?

Is there a Megaphone
Loud enough
So you can hear my words?

Oh wait. There's the internet.
Oh iiNet!
Why can't you be more efficient?
Damnit.

The three of them closed down on me.
Then, they told me to follow them.
I was led into a dark dark room.
Surrounding me, they began interrogating me...

Argh
The secret's out.

Darn...
As the sem progresses on
I find myself getting lost along the way.

For a long time
I take pride in my quick understanding of the complicated concepts in biology
Not that I am being narcissistic and praising myself
But I do work hard to be that way
I try to read widely
Absorbing pieces of information that interest me
Hoping that some day
Someone will enlighten me on how these puzzle pieces are put together.

Then I stumble onto the world of Chinese Medicine
Where explanations do not follow reason at times.
Where almost everything requires
Memorization.
And little else.

And so
For an individual brought up on learning
Through understanding, then questioning the validity
Accepting concepts which are proven by mere lines of ancient wisdom
Is a tough reality I am finding hard to accept.

Most irritating thing is
For the same concept
There are 1 million and 1 different ways to express it.
补气 is the same as 益气.
Then why the hell do they not just use 补气 all the way!?!!
Why must they always confuse me!?!!

Complain complain complain...

I should be thankful
That I am in the 21st century.
Where long-distance communication
Is as simple as pressing a few buttons

I can't imagine
Having to write letters
And waiting for months to get a reply
Or writing telegrams
AND SAYING I MISS YOU STOP

Thanks for calling me so often.
Sometimes, just hearing your voice makes my day better

This was where we used to study.
The blue cushions.
The long table.
Your laptop on the table.
Your shoes on the floor.
Your rainbow coloured toe socks adding life
To the otherwise lifeless surroundings.

Your strikingly green jacket
Your look when you are concentrating
You look up into my eyes
And smile

Alas
With a shake of the head
The illusion fades
So far, yet so near, still so far

I'm feeling depressed
Cos you're going to get scolded by your mum
and I can't help you solve the problem or be there for you
and I am so lousy with words, I don't know how to comfort you

1, 2, 3, again 1, 2, 3
Stars, I'm going crazy

No matter how many times I look at you, I can't see you, oh baby
Because of the tears in my eyes, all because of you
My crying face that is reflecting above the spread letters, oh baby
I promised myself I wouldn't cry again, but I'm crying again

What do I do, I don't know what to do, what to do
This is me, I don't know why I'm going crazy like this
All because of you, really because of you
I can't do anything, I

Love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars
I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star
Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say
I really can't express myself
I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

No matter how many times I count, I can't see the end, oh baby
Because of all the memories that are in my heart, I think of you again
I couldn't say everything I wanted to so I say them to myself, oh baby
I want you back, I want to go back to your side

I'm pleading to you, please, I'm pleading to you
To the sky, my prayer goes to the sky
Cheer me up, cheer me up
Please, where are you now

Stars, stars, stars, stars, talk to me
Is it over? Is that it? Answer me, don't just laugh
Stars, stars, stars, stars, I'm pleading to you
Just for once, my love
Let me fly to your side

Star, star, star, ooh baby, star, star, star, oh

I love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars
I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star
Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say
I really can't express myself
I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

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With your hand in mine,
It feels like the entire world is muted and dimmed.
And all I can hear or see is you.

With my arms around you,
the world fades away,
And time seems to stop.

With your lips against mine,
my mind is wiped
And I just lose track of all thought.

The feelings
etched in my heart...

Not her...
You.

PS. If you deny me one of your kisses...dunno wad I'll do =P